who i am right now? i really don't know

erm, aku macam dah tak kenal diri nie siapa lagi. entahlah kenapa agaknya? Aku jadi kuat marah sekarang, panas baran gila, sikit2 mengamuk. Ada je tak kena. Nak cakap period tak juga? i really2 don't like myself right now. And macam ada mengada2 sikit?? Benda dulu aku takkan buat kat orang tapi aku buat sekarang. Even to my dearest people. I really don't know why. Sometimes mengamuk kat si dia tanpa sebab? kesian die? kat mama, adik2? Apa nie, asal dengan aku nie? MAMA PUN DAH TEGUR, CAKAP AKU KENAPA SEKARANG?  Aku nak jadi aku yang dulu? i hate the way i'm now. Like a stupid girl. SHIT! please? I just want to be the OLD me- the old NUR ASHIKIN.  Where are U ekin? Where? Come back please. U ARE HURTING THE PEOPLE THAT U LOVE. They will go away one day if u still like this okay?....... :(